Every 3 months or so since I had my tracheostomy surgery I have been getting my trach replaced. The process is never pleasant. The doctor yanks the trach out of my throat and shoves a new one back in... Ouch! There's blood and sharp pain, followed by nausea from swallowing the blood. Like I said it is not a enjoyable experience, until this last time.
My trach replacement was a truly wonderful experience!! First of all mom and dad went with Lou and me. Secondly, I was given a new and improved trach . Amazingly I didn't feel anything at all, it was crazy. I felt a tug when the doctor pulled it out, but absolutely nothing when he put the new trach in!! The inserting is always the worst because it was sharp and stiff. The new design is flexible! Thank you so much for all your faithful prayers for me.
I had honestly been struggling to breathe and the night prior to my trach change appointment I did business with God. It felt like He was going to call me home. So I was in shock that the doctor gave me the new trach and I was given more time. God continues to sustain me physically and grant me peace in my storm. It has caused me to see Mark 4:35-41 in a new light.
When the disciples woke up Jesus because they were afraid for their lives, Jesus said to the wind and the waves, " Quiet ... Be still." Then Jesus challenged the disciples, "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?" The disciples were in awe that the wind and sea obeyed Him. Ironically, it would have been even more amazing if when Jesus said, "Quiet... Be still" the disciples would have obeyed instead! That is what Jesus wanted from them and from me today.
The song and the verse that friends recently sent me that have inspired me to obey and be quiet and still...