The power cord box for my eye gaze computer started overheating Monday. By early Tuesday morning it was burned out and my computer batteries were depleted. So for two and a half days I was not able to communicate! Actually, I was able to indicate yes and no with my eyes, but that's all I could do. ALS has made me really bad at charades. My poor family, trying to figure out what I needed by me batting my eyes at them. During my time in bed my husband kindly played instrumental Christian piano music for me. I would be lying if I told you I was not afraid to go to sleep. Without my computer I would not be able to call Lou to help me. Listening to the music helped calm my heart as I sang the lyrics in my head. As God would have it, one of the best songs I ever heard in concert was repeated multiple times. Draw Me Close to You! One line of the chorus says, "You're all I want. You're all I ever needed." As I was lying in my hospital bed, attached to a ventilator, suction machine, and next to my electric wheelchair I was thinking about how I picture God. I would say He is a Lifetime Battery. Quite literally my physical life is dependent on batteries. My ability to move, breathe, remove crud and communicate is ALL battery operated. However, long before this stage of my life God was growing, directing, purging, sustaining and strengthening me. God, has been, is, and will continue to be all I need. This week I was humbled! Ultimately I must allow Jesus to install an Arc Reactor (super duty energy source) in my heart like Iron Man! Only when my heart is infused with who God is, will I be able to say that God is all I need and most importantly, WANT! Psalm 73:24-26
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
Song... Draw Me Close - The Katinas