BY MY SIDE

I will always remember the student nurse who helped me after my tracheostomy. During the middle of the night I was moved from the ICU to the Critical Care wing. In the process my eye gaze computer was unplugged and packed in with all my other medical equipment. At this point in time I was still a little groggy and only concerned that they called Lou. It wasn't until I got transferred to the new room that I realized that I had a big problem. My eye gaze computer was left in the carrying case on the chair by my bed. When my nurse came in to introduce herself and her three student nurses I was trying to signal with my eyes what I needed. Of course she didn't understand and I started, to cry. The nurse reassured me she would be back in a while to check on me and they left. Except for one! He stood there watching me with a look of compassion. He came over and asked how he could help. I stared at my computer bag. He picked it up, unzipped it, took the computer out, pulled up a chair and sat down. For the next 45 minutes he was on his phone. He saw the name of my computer and started looking up videos on how to turn it on, set it up, how it worked with my eyes and how to position it so I could talk to him. Once he got me all up he listened to what I needed and continued to make sure that I was taken care of! What a beautiful illustration of my relationship with the Lord! The Bible says that he Jesus didn't come to call the healthy/righteous but the sick/sinner to repentance. So when I find myself in a spiritual hospital bed He is the one by my side. He comforts me and assures me that the purging process is necessary. There are times when I don't know how to express myself and my emotions even if I could speak. It is these moments, sitting beside me, that He knows my thoughts and speaks to me what my heart needs to hear! I have come to realize that the only thing that can quiet me is reading the Bible. I keep reading until my heart is at peace! He is NEAR! Mark 2:17
On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”
Matthew West // The God Who Stays